So this is going to be a bit different than my other blog posts which isn't always a bad thing. 

My question to you is: What is friendship?  Not the kind of friendship where you sit around playing COD.  No.  The kind of friendship where you love the person so much you'd take a million bullets for them before you're willing to see them in pain.  I only have a few friends like that.

The other day, I had a mental breakdown... and I realized that they're so much worse if they're not about you.  I hate watching people die... but it happens.  I also hate watching people slowly kill themselves on this posion seperating one from their family.  Why can't the world just stop for a second and take notes on all the people slowly killing themselves instead of being SO distracted with this materialistic world.  Sure, neopets are nifty and beyblades are bitchin but COME ON PEOPLE.

Sometimes it feels like no one cares.  Not even your "friends".  I could be at a party and my hands would start intensely hurting (because of my meds) and no one notices. By no means am I looking for attention but once in a while I just want to know someone cares.  I try my hardest every single day to care about people and you know what I get in return?  People thinking it's all bullshit.  If I am taking time out from my life to actually care about something... it's not bullshit. It's so easy to give up on people and let go... but you need to think, "what would this person's life be like without me?".

I was told I was strong the other day.  I laughed.  No one's strong.  Especially not me.  All I am is this drugged up confused sixteen year old girl running around and doesn't know how to get a hold of her emotions.  There is really only one person who I tell absolutely EVERYTHING to, and I feel bad because he's not much better off than I am.  I really should stop.  Just keep things inside again.  Because no matter how many times I go crying to him, I just feel guilty and selfish. 

I am one fucking stupid human.

Kay, so you know how everyone is getting sick and stuff... I HAD to go and get mono.  It SUCKS.  It sucks to the point where like I would yell at you if you asked me for it.  My throat feels like theres enough room to breathe through a straw... I got rid of my fever by basically like bathing in ice 0.0  no school for me.  I was in the hospital 2 nights ago and I brought Bilo with me and the nurse said something about him and I was like WTF?! It's bilo... he's awesome. 

I quit smoking! ^_^  It was like the hardest thing EVER!  I'm just like woohoo!

Since I am writing as you probably caught on...the world never ended... no black hole :( I was actually like SUUUPER depressed when that never happened because it gave me false hope -.-

SOOOOoooooooooooooooooOOOOOO... icky is coming back this summer... AND I WON'T EVEN BE IN THE CITY!! XD  Thank god for working at camp...

OMG.  I met this little grade 9 who LOOKS JUST LIKE ME! So I call him mini me XD  I know... I said him.  He looks like a girl but I love him.  He's sooo cute.  I think that he will be SUCH a pimp when he's older...

             Before you go screaming at me for the title.  EMO means EMOTIONAL!  people just got lazy and shortened it and with it being shortened, rumours start.  Stereo types SUCK! Admit it... everyone has been stereo typed at least a hundred times in their sad lives.  I was looking up Down with the Sickness by Disturbed the other day and someone wrote " this song is what emo kids listen to and it sucks. "  I stared at it for about 5 minutes making sure I got that right and then I was like WTF?!?!?  The other day my mom was like to me aw ew.  Are you one of those emo kids??  I was going to be a smartass and asked her to define emo kid.  She said everything a preppy kid would say in the hall: You cut yourself and have suicidal problems and wear scary clothes.  I was completely offended that my MOTHER would say this... honestly?

         I'm not a scene kid.  or a prep.  or an athlete.  or like some really nerdy kid... I am a dork.  I am hyperactive beyond repair.  I am VERY emotional.  People have issues with people like me because I don't fit into ONE stereotype.  I actually have a hell of a lot of friends for that reason... and apparently i'm lovable XD. 

          About the whole mom thing... I don't blame her because sometimes humans don't know better.  They need more training :D ahaha my mom is so funny tho... except she still talks about my ex best friend.  So do my brother's for that matter.

I have to go because the stupid idiots who I call my brothers are kicking me off the computer because they wanna play kirby...

KATIETRENCH!